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The city knocks you down

You can’t breathe around

A feeling you can’t get rid of

Living life just seems so tough

Breathe, breathe little soldier, I feel your pain

Money is not the game not even the gain

And when fear shows up

You little soldier grow up

Don’t back down, stand your ground

Life is an outbound

The heart of Venus and the strength of mars

Remember, purpose only matters when you shoot for the stars.

 

 

A: “Hey man! Wait a minute. Stop”

B: “No man, I haven’t got any time now. Super busy and have a meeting in 2 minutes for that project we’ve been working for months. If only Lucy would have done her part properly, this would be perfect now. Grr, let me go.”

A: “No way. Fuckin’ hell, we need to talk and I don’t care if you’re in a rush now, because you’ve forgot the most important thing. Now go wash your hands and face, then I’ll tell you something”

B: ”Ok, ok. What’s the matter?”

A: ”Come on, you haven’t figured it out yet? I thought you were clever. You see, when you woke up this morning, you didn’t take a minute to appreciate the sunshine. Then, on your way to work, you didn’t didn’t notice that lady struggling with the stroller to get on the bus. You were just in front of her. Furthermore, you were so busy checking your emails that you that you crossed the road with red light and got almost killed. You are just too much focused on secondary things and this leads you to miss many of the little but meaningful things in life. Just take a minute to realise you’re not your villa, you’re not your business, you’re not the cars you own, you’re not your expensive holidays and you’re not even your bank account. Every single day take a few moments to pause from all the rush and take a deep breath holding the air in your lungs as long as you can. Do it now. Close your eyes and immerse yourself in a deep meditation state. Feel the energy running through your veins. This is the same energy that flows into the universe and gives life to the world. You are here on a mission, as every other human being, but please don’t forget to live in the name of love and gratitude. The universe will take care of the rest.”

B: “Feel so stupid right now…”

A: “Don’t worry brother, it’s alright. Just remember you are living life, you are on a journey, so please live every single moment… no one is going to give you back the time you’ve already spent.”

 

Me, myself and I.

Three weeks ago is when everything started to slowly, slowly change, but with huge results and impacts in my life.

Need to jump back in time to last August, when I decided to move to London. As I’ve already told you guys, moving to London was a crazy move, but I definitely didn’t know it would change my life. As a 23 year old guy, I really loved to enjoy all the beautiful and non-beautiful things the contemporary society could give me: sweets, candies, chips and fizzy drinks, coffee, cigarettes, weed, fast food, alcohol on a night out with my mates and so on.

On a regular day I would go to work after having had a nice and fatty breakfast with chocolate cereals and milk. Sometimes it could be doughnuts, croissants or cookies. If I  think of that now the only word that comes to my mind is: RUBBISH! Then I would go to work, but just before clocking-in I would go to my favourite coffee shop for a cappuccino, with chocolate sprinkles, followed by a cigarette. Coffee without cigarette? No way. This at 9 o’clock in the morning.

At about 10.30 a.m. time for another croissant, coffee and cigarette. Some of you may think: this guy knew how to deal with junk. Well yes! I actually, loved it. But I did this because I was triggered by the idea that this was good stuff. It’s good for me, so I’ll do it as much as i can. Well sex is good as well, but you cannot do it every hour, just because it feels good. I was just overwhelming myself. But let’s go on on with my narration.

Luckily I work for a catering company so I always get good food for lunch, but good food doesn’t always mean healthy food. So I was always eating carbs and meat, not being aware of the fact that on the long term this could be too much for me. See, same as thing as with sex.

I’m a bit embarrassed to say this now, but I kept living with this routine for about 9 months. Oh my goodness, I kept poisoning my body for so long. Didn’t even pay attention to the clues the body was giving me. Sorry body, this won’t happen again anymore.

After lunch I would usually go to a cafe to get some nice coffee and a Chelsea bun or a muffin. Coffee doesn’t go alone, so you need a cigarette. After a while, when my gym session time was about to come, I could complain I was feeling too heavy to go for a workout. Naughty. Very naughty. So I would go home for dinner, to have some meat lasagna or chicken, or if I felt lazy enough, I’d go for a 2.69£ pizza from Tesco. Such an idiot!

But here comes the best part, because after dinner it was smoking pot time and cookies!

Doing this for about 9 months, pulls your body to a chronic state of tiredness and makes you become the most lazy person in the world. I never wanted to work, just enjoy myself and smoke pot. That was life to me. After living this life for a while though, my mind started to be very tired and weak as well. I couldn’t focus for more than 10 minutes in everything I did because I the needed to smoke or to eat. Wow, that was a vicious cycle that could have led me to the worst.

Finally, three weeks ago I decided to embrace change and commit myself day per day to be the best and to do the best for myself. I started eating healthy and less, results are incredible! Feel stronger, so full of life and I’m always up to a workout session; started going to the gym 5-6 times per week, very tough the first week, but now I can’t help going to the gym; last but not least I started to train my mind: I keep a journal, always study when not working and not giving myself to wasting-times things (like Netflix and chill).

The hardest part was to quit smoking cigarettes and this was the first thing I did and from which everything else just came so naturally. I tried with many different methods ( reading books, doing mental exercises, watching disgusting videos about polluted lungs) but none of that seemed to work. It was a loop: I might have started the day with the best intentions but as soon as I had a stressing moment I would go back to that vice. A few weeks went by and then finally I gave up smoking completely without any effort. The thing is I built up the image of myself as a healthy non-smoker, that gradually my mind started to refuse smoke. Subconsciously I just realised that my body is a phenomenal gift and I have to cherish it if I want him to help me until I’m old. So I made kind of a deal with myself to take care of myself and to avoid things that can hurt me both on the short and long term. I found the answer inside of me.

I’d like to cut now before it gets too boring, but I’ll keep you posted about my self-development journey! Have a lovely day guys. Ciao!